A Thousand Ways

A thousand ways, to say she was on my mind
A thousand thoughts, I thought for her
A thousand times, I called out her name
A thousand moments, to remember her laughter
A thousand pictures, of her beautiful smile
A thousand sounds, of her sweet voice
A thousand feelings, I feel for her
A thousand hugs, were meant for her
A thousand wishes, I wished to be with her
And a thousand is not enough,
To show how much I love her.

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I'm Here For You

I'll always be here

No matter what

Don't let go

Things will be alright

Don't hold back

I'm here for you

Take my hand

I will hold you through

I need you

Just like you need me too

If you start to be scare

I scare too

Because it kills me to know

The pain you going through

It might be stormy now

But it can't be rain forever

I have faith in you

I know you can hold on

Take some of my strength

Before yours will gone

I will dry your tears

Hold you tight

I can't promise

To make you laugh

But I will try

To help you smile

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If You're Reading This

If you're reading this

I want you to know,

Even after all this time

I haven't let go of you.

You are still I think of

Whenever I'm all alone

I still hope you'll text me

As I stare at my phone.

If you're reading this

Maybe then you will see

That even after all this time

You are everything to me.

And I'm trying so hard

To not become feel sad

When I start to think about

What we could have had

If you're reading this

Maybe you will understand

How much it hurts to me

To see you hold his hand.

But you won't know I'm sad

You won't know I want to die

Because I'm still wear this smile

Even times when I want to cry.

And if you're reading this

I hope that you will see

That I'm still in love with you

Even it's slowly killing me.

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Writer's Block

What to do? What to write?
Really don't know, been up all night.
I just can't think, I really don't know
The pen says write, my mind says no.
Everytime I write, things seems so wrong
Rewrite, think again, I'll go down strong.
So confused, my words are stuck
But there's no solution, just my luck.
Looking around for some inspiration
On the sorrounding, beautiful creation.
Cause right now to inspire is all I need,
Know what to write and to succeed!

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Joyce

Joys and laughters you have given me
Over my tears, your single smile pleased me
Yes you are one of a kind, friend to admire
Cares from you I always desire
Even though you're to much to aspire.

to my bestfriend :)

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Lonely Heart

Lasting love were burning in flame,
Only some breathes here to remain.
Nobody understand this kind of pain
Every tear is like a heavy rain.
Loneliness keeps hurting me again
Your past memories stays the same
Happiness is walking away out of my life.
Emotions hurt inside like a sharp knife
All nights are cold and freezing
Remaining part of our story is hiding
This voice of lonely heart is shouting.

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What If?

What if I kiss you now,

How would you react?

Would you push me away,

Or kiss me back?

What if I say I need you,

How would you feel?

Would you appreciate my love,

Or just think I'm not for real.

What if I give you a box,

And inside was a key,

My heart is locked,

Would you open it for me?

What if I told you,

I could show you thing?

I mean things you've never seen,

Things the world can't offer,

Or only exist in your dreams.

What if I tell you we should be together,

What would you do?

Reject me or say I do?

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Unspoken Words

You tore me to pieces again and again
Caused me injuries that left no mark,
Made me shed those shameful tears,
And yet I returned to you over and over.
Tried to fix our shattered relationship.
Blaming myself, thought I was failing you,
That I wasn't that good enough,
And I was the reason we kept falling apart.

Again I tried to glue us back together,
You welcomed me and my promises to change,
Yet you've never made an effort,
You've never said your own sorries.
You were the one that needed to change,
You left me with this kind of burden,
To carry a weight that was not my own.

All I wanted was you, to love me as I am
To stop beating me down and under,
To be there as you should be,
But you won't, because to you I'm wrong,
And to be in your life I have to change.
To fit your desires and loose the other parts of me.
I've been through hell because of you,
I couldn't see any chance to survive.
I didn't believe I should survive.
I thought this pain was All I deserved
Because somehow I failed you.

To me you used to be my everything
Thankfully I see it now,
How truly foolish I was.
I know there will be some moments,
When I'll miss you in my life,
But you have made your choice,
It wasn't me and I have made mine,
No more tears for you.
You don't get to ruin my second chance.
I was lucky enough to come through that.

I'm here if you want to try to fix us,
To make amends for your mistakes.
If you truly want to make an effort,
And change your opinions on perfection
To which I'm glad I do not meet.
But don't expect an open arms,
I already lose my privilege to become your son.
I'm not that child anymore,
Shinny toys will not win my favour.
You'll have to go on substance
Good luck with that my dear Mama.

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Did She Cry Last Night?

Sadness,
Did she cry last night?
Sorrow,
The painful story that she writes.
Misery,
Did she cry last night?
Hating,
She's living a secret life.
Depression,
Did she cry last night?
Emotional,
Her hidden scars of pain.
Hurting,
Did she cry last night?
Weary,
Imbalance in her mind.
Despising,
Did she cry last night?
Hatred,
The tears she cries last night.

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Talking To Self

Open your eyes wide,
The truth is plain to see
You don't deserve the pain,
And I know you agree
It kills you slowly, see?
You're already rotting away,
And become dust on the wind
You're talking to yourself
Crazy and disturbed?
Or maybe you're normal
No, that's so absurd.
This poem is stupid,
And so are you
Yes, I do mean me
But, I guess, you already knew.
Voices shouted in your head,
Maybe it is your only friend
Stop talking to yourself, damnit!
Or atleast you can pretend.

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Bridge On Broken Dreams

Broken dreams of what I had planned,
-- Now burried six feet under the sand.
Broken dreams of what I've once knew,
-- Love and happiness with me and you.
Broken dreams now that I'm alone at last,
-- For time has lingered and forever past.
Broken dreams never to be found,
--Hiding in my mind safe and sound.
Broken dreams held captured in a cage,
-- Freedom is I all need so I build a bridge.

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Evil Intentions

I came over the desolated land,
As I hold my anger within my hand
Hate fills in my eyes every time
And soon vengeance will be mine.
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I look for the power of the gods,
And will be fighting against the odds.
I desperately need to find what I seek
Before I am no longer able to speak.
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Journey to the places of eternally hate,
I will stand and this will be my fate.
Nobody can stop me from obtaining what I need,
I will destroy them even if they will plead.
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My heart is cold and impure without remorse,
I will clench the reigns of my evil plans like wolf.
Making my way to the lands of peaceful and free,
To make them suffer the pain and agony as they fall before me.

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