Caused me injuries that left no mark,
Made me shed those shameful tears,
And yet I returned to you over and over.
Tried to fix our shattered relationship.
Blaming myself, thought I was failing you,
That I wasn't that good enough,
And I was the reason we kept falling apart.
Again I tried to glue us back together,
You welcomed me and my promises to change,
Yet you've never made an effort,
You've never said your own sorries.
You were the one that needed to change,
You left me with this kind of burden,
To carry a weight that was not my own.
All I wanted was you, to love me as I am
To stop beating me down and under,
To be there as you should be,
But you won't, because to you I'm wrong,
And to be in your life I have to change.
To fit your desires and loose the other parts of me.
I've been through hell because of you,
I couldn't see any chance to survive.
I didn't believe I should survive.
I thought this pain was All I deserved
Because somehow I failed you.
To me you used to be my everything
Thankfully I see it now,
How truly foolish I was.
I know there will be some moments,
When I'll miss you in my life,
But you have made your choice,
It wasn't me and I have made mine,
No more tears for you.
You don't get to ruin my second chance.
I was lucky enough to come through that.
I'm here if you want to try to fix us,
To make amends for your mistakes.
If you truly want to make an effort,
And change your opinions on perfection
To which I'm glad I do not meet.
But don't expect an open arms,
I already lose my privilege to become your son.
I'm not that child anymore,
Shinny toys will not win my favour.
You'll have to go on substance
Good luck with that my dear Mama.
