14 Days Of Love [Feb-ibig]

For the fourteen days
For you I will start
By naming it one by one
Why I could never live you apart

For the very first day
You made me smile
It makes my morning
Worth all my while

Here’s the second day
And the way your eyes shine
It always ensures me
That you are always be mine

I wake on the third day
I will leave it simple
The way you wriggle
When my touch begins to tickle

For the fourth day
And still we’re going strong
Naming it one by one
The reasons your never wrong

Lovely on fifth day
How I can always be me
And how your crazy laugh
Even though my jokes aren't funny

For the sixth day
The list is getting long
Naming it one by one
How, with you, I always belong

And here’s seventh day
How you stare in my eyes
How you seem to always know
Everything I try to disguise

Seven days away
And streaming out reasons,
Naming it one by one
How I love your actions

Finally we’re on eighth day
Your lovely voice serenades
Settling me to sleep
For years, for decades

For the ninth day
And the way you smell
When I'm lost and down
Your foggy scent makes me well

We’re on the tenth day
And you still stay
Here by my side
Even when if broken I lay

For the eleventh day
The way you bite your lip
You look at me, with such love
Makes my heart flip

For the twelfth day
You remain my drug
I crave you exactly like
I desire a warm hug

For the thirteenth day
And my feelings start to pour
Naming it one by one
Why it’s you I adore

This is the last day
For the reason I am
Naming it one by one
The reasons I am who I am

This is the day of february
That I have waited for
The love is in the air
And just so you know,

I love you more

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12:26

Crystallized tears roll down her face

From her beautiful sapphire eyes,

Into the white roses she embraces

Turning it bloody red, waking up love.

Showing him, how honest her emotions

Her love’s paralyzing his stubborn feelings.

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Just Another Love Letter

I wish I could turn back time and reverse it
Since first time I saw your beautiful face
I have been in love with you,
It is foolish to think that
Loving you was just a suffer
Don't you know that?
You always be a part of my life
Don't you ever believe that,
You will be forgotten
My hope is that one day,
You would care about me even just a little
And I refuse to believe that
You and I were never made for each other.

(read it from the last line to the first line)

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Mefenamic: Ang Kwento Ng Pain-ibig [Chapter II]

Maluha-luha ang aking mga mata na siyang asset ko pa naman sabi ng aking inay na sinang ayunan ko naman. Ang sakit ng bagang ko nasagi ito nung pagkurot ni Jane sa medyo namamaga kong pisngi.

"Ayos ka lang ba?" tanong ni Jane na bakas sa mukha ang pagkagulat sa pagsigaw ko.

"Me-hyo" sagot ko habang nakapilipit yung dila ko sa ipin na kumikirot.

"Hala! Sorry, sumasakit ba ipin mo?"

"Kaninang umaga pa ito kumikirot"

Aayain ko na sana ang sarili ko na pumunta sa clinic para makahingi ng gamot at para narin makatakas sa mata ng mga estudyante na kanina pa nakatingin sa amin nang biglang may inabot sa akin si Jane.

"Mefenamic?"

"Gamot sa kumikirot na ipin."

Tumayo si Jane sa kinauupuan niya at pumunta sa drinking fountain para kumuha ng tubig na maiinom. Ang babaeng kanina na nag-eemo at nagbigay saken ng pag-aalala ay siya namang nag-aalala saken ngayon. Si Jane yung tipo na pag may nangyari sa akin ay agad na nagpapanic sa pag-aalala, daig pa niya ang nanay ko na gusto ako paliguan ng mosquito repellant para hindi ako madapuan ng lamok.

Nakilala ko si Jane nung naging magkaklase kami sa Community Service class nung first year pa lang kami. Nagsimula lang kami maging close nung minsan ay iniligtas ko siya sa isang aso na nag-aamok at nanghahabol ng kagat sa isang barangay na pinuntahan namin. Naging instant hero niya ako nung araw na yun at sa mga oras din yun nalaman kong torpe ako. Humanga ako sa isang babae na kakilala ko pa lang at para mapalapit sa kanya kinaibigan ko siya. Naging matalik ko siyang kaibigan. Hanggang sa nakasanayan na niyang tumakbo sa akin kahit wala ng humahabol sa kanyang aso.

Ako ang nilalapitan niya pag may problema siya at nagpapalitan din kami ng mga dirty-little-secrets sa isa't isa di nagtagal ay mas lalong nagkalapit ang loob naming dalawa. Konting level nalang para dun sa pinapangarap kong maging kami. Pero may isang malaking harang ng katorpehan ang pumipigil saken, na kahit sumakay ako sa likod ni yoshi kasama si super mario ay di ko parin kayang talunan ito at lampasan. Kaya doon nalang ako sa stage na kung saan ay hanggang mag bestfriend nalang kami.

"Inumin mo na yan. Ito tubig oh."

Inabot saken ni Jane yung tubig at ininom ko na yung gamot na ibinigay niya. Tiningnan niya ako na may bahid ng pag-aalala sa pagsakit ng ipin ko. Nginitian ko siya.

"Super epekteb yung gamot ah.. Nawala agad yung kirot ng ipin na nararamdaman ko." Sabi ko sa kanya para pawiin yung pag-aalala niya.

"Sigurado ka? Gusto mo samahan kita mamaya sa dentista?"

"Naku wag na. Ayoko sa dentista."

"Takot ka lang bunutan ng ipin e." pang aasar ni Jane.

"Ako takot? Hindi kaya." depensa ko sa sarili. Hindi naman talaga ako takot sa dentista o magpabunot ng ngipin, ayaw ko lang talaga na nadadapuan ang gums ko ng karayum. Hindi talaga ako takot. I swear.

"Simpleng sakit ng ipin lang 'to, maya-maya ay mawawala din ito."

Tumunog na yung school bell nagpapahiwatig na 11:00am na. Oras na para pumasok sa last subject ngayong umaga. Ihahatid ko muna si Jane sa classroom niya bago ako aakyat dun sa susunod kong klase. Ramdam ko parin ang konting kirot ng ipin ko pero naglaho ito ng nginitian ako ni Jane.

"Dito nalang ako. Hanggang bukas ulit. Ingat ka. Paalam, Renz."

"Sige, text-text nalang. Good luck, Jane. Ingat"

ITUTULOY...

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If I Fall

I love her but she doesn't know,
I don't know how to let her go.
She seemed so happy there with me,
But I guess that we'll never be.

I wish I had the chance to say,
That I think of her everyday.
Every night I lay down to sleep
When I wake up I feel so weak.

The memories just fill my head
All the words that left unsaid.
The nights where we would lay together,
I wish that they could last forever.

Slowly moving, I feel her touch
Thinking, I love her that much.
Knowing it would scare her away,
That's why I just couldn't say.

I don't know how to say it now,
Can I? Where? When? How? 
I hate being the first to go,
But I just have to let her know.

I'm risking my heart, my soul
Being with her is my only goal.
So here I go, give it my all
Yet, who's going to catch me if I fall?

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Mefenamic: Ang Kwento Ng Pain-ibig [Chapter I]

“Handa mo bang ipusta ang inyong pagkakaibigan para sa tsansang maging kayo?”

"Beeeeeeeest!" Sigaw ko habang mabilis na inangat ang aking katawan at umupo sa kama ko. Daig ko pa ang hinabol ng aso ni Mang Usting sa bilis ng hingal ko at gabutil na pawis sa noo ko. Panaginip lang pala. Napakamot nalang ako sa ulo at pilit inaalala kung ano yung nangyari sa panaginip ko. Best? Sinong best? Si Jane ba? Bigla akong naguluhan 'sing gulo ng buhok ko. Bestfriend ko si Jane pero hindi best ang tawag ko sa kanya. Wala din akong kilalang best ang pangalan. Malabong si Beast Machine (tawag ko sa professor ko sa Safety Management na parang beast machine transformer dahil biglang nagtatransform) yung nasa panaginip ko, beast yun hindi best.

Tumingin ako sa orasan 6:14am pa pala masyado pang maaga para sa klase ko mamayang 8:30am sa humanities. Babalik na sana ako sa pag higa ng aaaargh! biglang sumakit ang ipin ko. Naghanap ako ng gamot pero wala na palang laman ang medicine cabinet namin kaya bumaba nalang ako sa kusina at nagmumog nalang ng tubig na may konting asin. Naibsan ng konti ang kirot na nararamdaman ko. Imbes na bumalik sa kwarto ay dumiritso nalang ako sa banyo para maligo para makalimutan ko ang kumikirot kong ipin.


CHAPTER I:

"Oh ang aga mo ata ngayon?" tanong ni Inay habang nagluluto ng aming agahan.

"Sumakit kasi bigla ang ipin ko kanina. Hindi na ako makabalik ng tulog kaya naligo nalang ako." sagot ko habang pinupunasan ko ng tuwalya ang basa kong buhok. Hindi ko narin nararamdaman na kumikirot ang ipin ko.

"Kaya pala narinig kitang sumisigaw kanina akala ko kung ano na nangyari sayo." Bigla ko nalang naalala yung pagsigaw ko kanina at inisip ko din kung tungkol saan yung panaginip ko. Sumagi bigla sa isip ko si Jane. Kamusta na kaya ang bestfriend kong yun? Mag-iisang linggo na pala mula nung breakup nila ni Paulo. Malamang mag-eemo na naman yun mamaya.

"Bumili ka ng gamot mamaya pag uwi mo baka kasi sumakit na naman yang ipin mo saka wala na din tayong gamot dun sa medicine cabinet natin" pagputol ni inay sa malalim kong pag-iisip.

"Opo Nay."

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Pagkatapos ng klase ko sa dalawang subject ay agad akong dumiretso sa school canteen hindi para lumamon kundi para puntahan si Jane. Nakasanayan ko nang puntahan siya dun matapos ng klase. Doon kasi siya tumatambay at naghihintay para sa next subject niya saka malapit din kasi ang classroom niya dun.

Tanaw ko na siya sa malayo kaharap ang isang balot ng chippy at bote ng c2. Tama ang hinala ko nag-eemo na naman siya. Mahihiya ang buhok ni Hayley Williams sa paside view na hawi ng buhok niya ngayon. Pero maganda parin siya titigan sa malayo. Namiss ko tuloy yung pag ponytail niya sa kanyang buhok na mas lalong nagpapaganda sa bilugan niyang mukha. Nalulungkot akong isipin na nagkakaganyan siya ngayon dahil dun sa ex niyang si Paulo. Di ko maiitatangging may parte saken na masaya dahil wala na sila pero nasasaktan pa din ako pagnakikita ko siyang nalulungkot. Oo, matagal ko ng gusto si Jane kaso hindi ko masabi sa kanya. May chance na sana ako noon pero ng sasabihin ko na sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko ay inunahan naman ako ng espirito ng kaba hanggang sa naunahan ako ni Paulo at naging sila na. Tinanggap ko nalang ang masaklap na katutuhanan na hanggang mag bestfriend lang talaga kami. Hanggang ngayon. Ayoko ding mag take advantage dahil wala na sila Paulo. At higit sa lahat ayokong mawala ang tiwala niya saken dahil bestfriend niya ako. Bestfriend lang.

"Nakakamatay ang sobrang kalungkutan. Chronic depression ika nga. Kaya wag kang masyadong emo diyan." pambungad ko sa kanya at umupo sa tabi niya.

"Maiksi lang ang buhay kaya enjoyin nalang natin. Cheers!" pabiro kong sabi at itinaas yung bote ng c2 na nasa harapan niya.

"Baliw ka talaga" sabi niya at ngumiti siya ng bahagya.

"Wag ka na kasing malungkot diyan." sabi ko sabay hawi ng kanyang buhok na tinatabunan na ang kanyang maamong mukha.

"Hindi naman ako malungkot ah."

"Hindi daw oh." tiningnan ko siya ng diretso. Ngumiti siya pero bakas padin sa kanyang mga mata ang kalungkutan na dulot ng nangyari. Di ko siya masisisi sa kung anong nararamdaman niyang sakit ngayon, mahigit isang taon din kasi ang itinagal ng relasyon nila ni Paulo bago siya iwanan nito sa rason na hindi na daw siya masaya sa piling niya. Saklap. Kung anong sakit sa kanya ay ganun din ang sakit na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing nakikita ko siyang naluluha na ang mga mata pero pilit paring tumatawa. Pero parang ayaw na ding maglabas ng sama ng loob ni Jane ngayon bukod sa ayaw niyang maraming makakita sa kanya na umiiyak ay nabuhos na niya nung isang araw pa lahat saken ang hinanakit niya sa hiwalayan nila.

"Isipin mo nalang na may mga tao talagang pinagtagpo ng tadhana... to tear them apart. hehe" biro ko.

"Ha-ha-ha. Loko ka talaga, Renz" sabi niya habang tumawa.

"Napatawa na din kita. Lalo kang gumaganda pag ganyan.hehe"

"Gumaganda ka diyan. Bestfriend mo lang kasi ako kaya mo yan sinasabi"

"Oo, bestfriend kita kaya nagsasabi ako ng totoo."

"Sige na nga. Maraming salamat ha, kasi lagi kang andyan sa tabi ko pag may problema ako at pinapatawa" ngumiti siya saken this time yung genuine na ngiti na talaga.

"Kasama sa job description ko ng pagiging bestfriend ang pangitiin ka, makinig sa mga hinaing mo, at iyakan mo sa tuwing may problema ka" sabi ko sabay kurap ng mata.

"Nagpapacute ka na naman." hinawakan nya ang pisngi ko at kinurot.

"Aaaaaaah! aray!" napasigaw ako ng malakas at nagtinginan ang mga kapwa namin estudyante sa paligid.



ITUTULOY...

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I'm Here For You

I'll always be here

No matter what

Don't let go

Things will be alright

Don't hold back

I'm here for you

Take my hand

I will hold you through

I need you

Just like you need me too

If you start to be scare

I scare too

Because it kills me to know

The pain you going through

It might be stormy now

But it can't be rain forever

I have faith in you

I know you can hold on

Take some of my strength

Before yours will gone

I will dry your tears

Hold you tight

I can't promise

To make you laugh

But I will try

To help you smile

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What If?

What if I kiss you now,

How would you react?

Would you push me away,

Or kiss me back?

What if I say I need you,

How would you feel?

Would you appreciate my love,

Or just think I'm not for real.

What if I give you a box,

And inside was a key,

My heart is locked,

Would you open it for me?

What if I told you,

I could show you thing?

I mean things you've never seen,

Things the world can't offer,

Or only exist in your dreams.

What if I tell you we should be together,

What would you do?

Reject me or say I do?

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Why She Danced In The Rain

I watched her from my window
While she danced in the rain
This girl is so mysterious,
So beautiful, so insane!

I wish I had the courage
To forget about my life,
Let myself lose, be free from past
Dance with her side, let time pass.

She tramped in the puddles
So overwhelming was she,
Still mysterious, So distant
So contained, yet so free.

She saw me from my window
And yelled "The rain was great!
Come join me, side by side
Feel happiness instead of hate.

It is just a little rain
This rain won't bring harm
Lets share it together
Lets dance arm in arm!"

She continued dancing lovely
Through most of the day
She was still dancing her way
As the rain starts fading away.

As she danced in the rain
I now started to see
That she may have danced in the rain
But she really danced for me. 

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Raven

A lonesome raven sits

With a heart torn in half

He shed tears for a Dove

But he knew this bond

Would never last

No one believed

They were truly in love

How could it be?

A raven and a dove?

Knowing she was beautiful

So pure in heart,

They flew in heaven

Celebrating with their love.

Two different birds

Nobody liked it at all

So one night they took her

Leaving the raven all alone

At night the raven listens

Trying to hear her song

But he knows in his heart

That the dove is gone

There the raven sits

Sadden and alone

He has no one to love

His tears slip out

Now he does not know

Where he belongs

Across the seas

To his slumber home

There he waits...

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Dove

A beautiful white dove
Were trapped in a cage
Her head bowed,
Down and low
Her song travels far
But not far enough
She wishes to be free
For her heart is now heavy
And her new life is dreary
Her wings cover the tears
She afraid to show
Her eyes are full of fear
She want to let it go
Why must cruel people
Destroy true love?
"One day..." she whispers
Her song will be heard
Her lovely brave raven
Will spread his dark wings
He will fly across seven sea's,
And hold her in his wings.
Hoping that it is not a dream
And the fate cross their ways
How she wishes now to be free
She can not wait to be with him
And he can fly her away
In the heaven breeze
With love, they'll float night and day.

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One Last Time

We're have our own lives

We'll take a glimpse of the real world

You're still locked up in my mind

We're trapped in a puzzle of relationship

That goes on with or without you

I search for your heart,

I search for my true self

I swim the ocean of the unconscious

Watch the sunset of broken chords

A summer of a shattered sword

I'm sweetly reminiscing the past

Of two wings that embracing

I still think nothing but love

Only days passing without nights

Don't worry coz you're not alone

I'm still on your mind

Let me take you to the place of no regrets

I'm still at your best

You are no doubt aware of the problems

But I'm afraid to see it

I'm shaken by the fact

And I can't even barely move

Tears will pass through

I'm the one who's got to leave

Nobody's really got to leave

I just need to explain it later

Maybe it's time to say goodbye

I just want to see you one last time.

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I'm Lost Without You

I'm lost without you
And nothing would remain the same
I can't find my way
I don't want to get older
Because the closer it gets
The more sadness it makes
Every sad song I heard,
I would think of you
Every single thing I do,
I'm always think of you
I feel so empty without you
Darkness sweeping into my heart
Causing me so much pain inside
I'm lost on my own
Daydreaming all day
Sitting by the phone,
Just hoping you will call
Here I sit and wait
Let the time pass me by
Wanting to be where you are
But there is no way out
And I am still lost.

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Back Into You

I do always find a way back into you
Maybe this would be the best
I'm thinking of you at any time
Even on days we can't meet

I still feel your warm embrace
You wrapped my heart
with warm palms of your hands
And I am comforted, my love

When I saw you from a distance
And saw your casual kindness
I wanted to be with you again
And say the words I need to say
The words you need to hear

I wanted to hold you back
And we will be as one
I want to protect you
And believe that there is such thing
as an ever lasting love

I will tell you my overflowing thoughts
without hiding them
You're a miracle I only met once
Just like the raindrops
which eventually fall into the ground
And you were the gravity that make me fall

You are my everything
Even for a tiny instances
when we cross paths without meeting
Never leave again
I'm sure we'll open our hearts together

I will come again to listen the dreams we hold
And we will continue the book we were reading
We will strengthen the bonds we have
We will continue our everlasting love

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Afraid Of Losing You

I am scared
To know you better
'Cause I know I can't forget you

I am scared
When I spend more time with you
And see myself changing my routines

I am scared
When you make me happy
And see myself smiling always

I am scared
When I find myself missing you
And do crazy things just to be with you 

I am scared
When my heart skips a beat
Every time my phone beeps.

I am scared
When I say I would walk thousand miles
And fall at your doorstep just to see you

I am scared
When you call me all night
And see myself awake 'til morning

I am scared
When you say 'I Love You'
And you will know I'm in love with you

I am scared
'Cause I'm afraid to lose you

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Mary

Since the day I met you
I've been mesmerized by you
Such a different life, so far
Your home a world afar

I can see life's perfection,
I can see it through you
Through every thought and emotion,
Through everything you do

You are so special, very unique
For you I would climb the tallest peak
And swim the widest ocean
Just to be with you, my one

There is much of you I don't know,
So much that it frustrates me
Yet, what I have learned from you,
Utterly fascinates me and love you dearly

I will patiently wait for you,
I will wait for that time to come
And hope that somehow. . . someday
You will be mine. . . Completely

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You're My All

You are my first and will be my last
You are my future and my past
Never once have I felt this way,
Never will I ever want to live again

It's wonderful having somebody to love
When the weather is sunny and bright,
Someone to share life's adventure and joy,
When everything's going just right

When we touch, it's like it was the first time,
When we kiss our hearts skip a beat in time
When I close my eyes to go to sleep at night,
I see you and I know everything will be alright

Real love comes through the dark gloomy days
When the storm clouds take over the sky
When you can't see our way through adversities
No matter how solely we try

Real love makes every pleasure more fun
Real love brings the heart a fulfillment of peace
That remains through the shadow and sun
And makes our heart beat bliss.

With this, we may have our fight
When others seem not to agree
Because there is no one else in my heart
That is more perfect for me

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Behind Those Eyeglasses

Fragile and innocent were those eyes,
Clear as waters when they shine
But as silver tears were shed by painful cries
Behind those eyeglasses they hide.

How strong you are to fight
Against lonely moments
and half-faked smiles?
So firm are those eyeglasses to hide,
All the heartaches in your life.

Shallow reasons for a burst of laughter
We had all those nonsense jokes
And a bit of silence we talk
The smiles behind those eyeglasses are my reasons
Reasons for every happiness in my life.

Behind those eyeglasses
Are vision of our memories,
Of thousand moments,
Of hundred dreams.
To where those promises were kept and sealed.
For every word we speak,
For the love we bear.

And as long as you could see me
Through those eyeglasses I swear,
Never will I leave
'cause behind those eyeglasses I have seen
The love that completes me
And will be forever I need.

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Secret Message

Joyous moment came upon me
On the day I heard her sweet melody
Every second, every minute, I stare at her beauty
Looking at her grace with full sympathy

Lustrous smile of the one I love
Of her smile I noticed no one
Voice of her sounds like a singing swan
Everytime she sings, she captures me

Glamorous and adorable face of her
Everytime she smile it makes me feel lout
Like a notional paradise between me and her
Awkward feelings floating in my mind
I want to woo her saying "I love you"

Vision comes from my mind
Elements of love was intertwined
Ridiculous feelings I'm hiding behind
Yet, she's the only one I wait to be mine.

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She Who Must Not Be Named

A smile from your lips
Makes my heart skip a beat
The magic of your voice,
Knocks me right off my feet

The magical words you say
Makes me out of control
You casts a magical spell
That plays a harp in my soul

Now my heart was yours
A love that yours to keep
Two hearts trickly beating
All thoughts were now drifting

Your magic, your charm
Was enchanting and it captures me
One glance from your eyes
And my world spin around

You have confunded me,
And now I'm feeling well
Like this is magical,
I'm under your spell.

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